...Abbey Road Lies...

could it be possible?

Sat, 13 Mar 2004 22:01:23 GMT

pretty eyes, nice personality. . . maybe not my type. ehh.

p.s.
Help?

dun nuh nuh nuh nuhhhh dunuhnuhnuh

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 03:10:13 GMT

school was dumb and very unmotivating. same annoyances. u know. work was fun. ambers really laid back. i dunno why no one likes her. but it is quite fun-e how she thinks that she is an assisstant manager when sam directly said that she isn't. oh well. mike meade called me while i was in the shower. i call him back just now, we talked for a bout 5 mins... he's so hot. he called me sexy. :) im a loser, hopefully he'll stop by chelseas tomorrow. im so fukking tired. night. <3

great/bad

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 04:27:58 GMT

i went to quiznos with john n chels to pick up chelseas pay check. i needed a job so i asked for an application, filled it out, and the coolest manager ever (sam) had an interview with me and hired me on the spot. it was nice. i want him.

on the other hand.. i was just laying on my bathroom floor for an hour, throwing up because im coughing so hard.. it stopped for like 20 mins and i fell asleep, but i woke up coughing uncontrollably again. Great, another half hour night of sleep. im looking forward to it.

atleast i had a nice relaxing day with john, chelsea and bobby. <3

p.s.
i wish the fukking gay guys would leave. I love gay guys, but they're old, and obnoxious and SOOOO stuck up. LEAVE MY HOUSE NOW.

outkast.

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 01:38:21 GMT

so i've come to this conclusion that i dont like family gatherings. god, i seem so selfish. john and i had a talk... it was good/bad. im not sure still. i feel like an outkast all around. all i want to do is sit in either my house or someone elses. what happened to me being MRS SOCIAl? i mean i love being around people, but every place there is to go seems to uninteresting to me. i just rather watch a movie then sit in the pool hall (the smoke is starting to get to me).. and i rather eat them go to the bowling ally and just sit. ... i like being active when i go places... i wanna start surfing.. maybe i should just start voulenteering at the MLC.i miss it so much. ... i keep trying to call susan.. but i dont know whats going on. if im not a consoler this summer... im gonna be so upset. i dont know wtf will happen. ahhhhhh. im gonna go be a dumb bitch. <3

i had a very nice time

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 17:05:41 GMT

it was nice to hang out with chelsea and i aimee. i love them.

i like hanging out with heather, andrew, angela and people. its nice being over there... i know i used to hate andrew, but i dont know. something weird just happened. he's nice. and we get along really well.

i miss danyel. i dont think she likes me anymore or something. i dontk now. maybe im just over paranoid. i wanted her to spend the night this weekend... it was the first time she declined. hmm. ... my dad even asked about her. rose too.:sigh:..

well, hopefully i can talk my mom into gettting new vinyl. later.

-Julie.

wtf

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 18:55:50 GMT

so, my father is such an asshole. he tells me every week he'll get me a cell phone and never does. screw him.

im so lost

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:19:24 GMT

i met this guy mike today. too bad he's 19. he's got such a great personality. and it makes him hot. oh well... i've come to the reality that im never gonna have another boyfriend.

oh listen to the shit i heard. some girl told me that robbie said that zakk told him that i cheated on robbie with zakk. WTF? i never touched ANYONE when i was going out with ROBBIE. thats so fukking stupid. i never hurt robbie. he hurt me. and i broke up with him legitamitely too. w/e.

i had a pretty good day today. i got to see MR. LIBMAN<3 <3, JOSH D, ALEX, HANKEL, BILLAY, SARRAH!!!!, DEE, ERIN M, and im just so...sad about it all. i miss my school. it's the worst feeling to go back to dwyer even to visit.. you'd think it'd be nice, but it isn't... and i only say that because it's like a tease.

i feel like just smoking weed and relaxing, but i have none. and i rather just relax normally. ehh...

so, angela bought a snake with me today. it's hers. it's baby. aww. i love it. :). andrews such a nice guy.. like i hated him, and when him and anna broke up we became so close. its crazy. heather is so great too <3. they're so nice. we had a jenga war today. how exciting...

i miss anna and britty... i want to hang out with them!!!

ehh im gonna go xoxo <3333

p.s. i wish danyel n rose woulda spent the night tonight
p.s.s. john is such a nice guy
p.s.s.s. so is joe

dear everyone,

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 02:34:57 GMT

okay, so yesterday guess i over reacted with the whole joey thing. i didn't give him and chance to explain and i just should have taken the joke lightly instead of so fukking personal. i apologized, cuz i realized him and i have too much of a past too just fukking hate eachother over something SO stupid. hopefully i get to see him before he REALLY leaves, whenever that may be.

im sick.. and i can't get over it. i keep sweating, and i dont know if im going to school tomorrow cuz school's gay.

Im not sure what im doing this weekend. its like one of the first weekends that i dont have a set plan. i wanna hang out with danyel/rose/chelsea. but i think they're all busy. i know im hanging out iwth chelsea sat. and i wanna hang out with danyel friday. but who knows :-\

FCAT sucks, and spring break is coming up, maybe anna and britt will hang out iwth me. i call back on fri to build-a-bear to see if i get the job. hopefully i do. i need a job so bad

weell. im not sure how everyone else is doing but i love everyone, and im glad that john and i are doing great. i love him. he was being so kind to me today. xoxoxoxo i love u allllll

-Julie.

SHE BANG SHE BANG

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 02:55:31 GMT

I turned in my job applications today to pac sun and build-a-bear. and supposedly buld-a-bear is hiring and will prob hire me before pac sun. but i just really need either job right now.

i went to the wellington mall today with ant, and sorta met up with other people, but that didn't work. ant loves the wellington mall. he's so nice.

chelsea and i get to hang out tomorrow and that makes me really happy! and we get to see mike. and then wed we're hanging out too! (chelsea and i) and hopefully i get to work thursday. ahh. but i dunno yet.

matt stopped by randomly today. that was so nice of him. I <3 him. aw.

hopefully, if i dont get a job this thursday my father will finally go get me a cell phone... and im actually glad they found about me smoking, so now i have a real efficient reason to quit. :) and it's working. ehh im gonna go .

pace out nikka.

p.s.
danyel, i want your penis, so call me.

farewell

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 18:12:25 GMT

my parents found out i smoke. i will never see the light of day again. bye.

i mean it must be high

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 01:14:10 GMT

i've decided im surfing this weekend. the gut has to leave my fukking body. and i want my tanness back.
john called me a mooch. so im gonna try to get a job at hollister. thats the end.

dreams...

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 00:03:56 GMT

i had a highly boring, yet educated day at school today, i bonded with chelsea alot <3. found out more and more people just talk shit about me. lol. after school zachary came and picked me up with anna and this other girl. and we dropped them off at anna's, picked up britt, then zach kicked us outta the car and got us later. how rude. but uhh.. i hope andrew dies or something. DOUCHE BAG...::ps:: i dont like zach.

i just got off the phone with shmanyel. AWW I LOVE HER.

and then after i called her i called mike... that seriously made my moment. i used to think he wsa like ditching my calls and stuff.. but he said that he just works alot. he told me to call him back in an hour or so, so i will. its nice to talk to him again. i had a dream about him last night.. actually alotta people were in my dream, but him and josh davis were my main characters. lmao. u guys have to hear it, but its SUPER ass long to type it. anyeay, so... mike's birthday is today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. not that he reads this.. but its cool that he's 16 today. can't believe im older than him. how exciting. he's definately someone i would love to go out with. so, my whole week's filled and it's making me sick. i dont wanna go to gods tomorrow to do our fukking stupid ass project. but i fukking have to... FUKK. and then wednesday i have acting which will be nice, thursday i have to have another group meeting for the project then friday its due. fukk in the asshole. life sucks. oh well i guess.

im going to expresss my dream anyway. I can't really remember all of it, but i remember it like sparatically.
okay so there was 3 cars, and it was filled with alot of my friends. john was drivin, josh davis was driving and matt was driving. i was in josh davis's car. it wsa him, danyel, rose, my friend pat and myself. we were meeting up with some people at burging king in tequesta. it was RIGHT next door to this old abandoned house, so we all decided to go in there once we all met up at BK.. and alicia was there in matts car and we were all in the room, stefan, cori, everyone was there... and alicias head got severed off.. it was crazyness. haha. and then like me, rose, and danyel got scared then ran out.. and then we went back in cuz no one followed and it seemd that everyone was like having prayer or something in the house and like i grabbed josh and danyel and rose ended up staying and pat followed and mike came with us too. i was like "JOSH DRIVE AWAY DRIVE" and pats like "i need to go home" and josh was like going somewhere in tequesta and im like "HE LIVES THE OTHER WAY" and then pat made josh just drop him off at this football feild. so, mike had this idea to go back to the abandoned house and get everyone then go to the cemetary, and josh was like w/e. it started raining mad hard.. but we got there.. and the gate to the house was fukked up and caitling was shitting in the outhouse and got stuck. and we got her out. and then we all went in the house and like danyel was like crying and rose and john were like helping her. we tried to get everyone out there, but no one would.. and there was like this side door that went STR8 into the BK, and mike got in, and then i got in.. and i had this black bag.. and everyone had their sleeping bags.. and they all decided to like sleepin the house and i slept in the BK with mike and danyel and some little girl i didn't know. and like then all of a sudden i was at a carnival and i was standing at the top, ready to fall off one of the rides and then i hear the announcer go "BRYAN AND NEIL, U JUST BROKE THE FERRIS WHEEL.. U 2 GET AN F ALONG WITH GETTING KICKED OUT" and i started laughing my ass off.. and then all of a sudden i was back in joshes car running from the ghost with danyel n pat was back in the car, then pat jumped out and he was on this tire swing and vanished, then danyel was like having panick attacks and last thing i reember was josh screaming as we were driving somewhere... THE- FUKKIN - END.

too long or what? :-D

invasion of the body snatchers.

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 15:31:40 GMT

well, i miss everyone, but it was nice that my mom let anna and brittany come over. rachel came over too, that was a nice surprise. i found out that heather shoemacker (sp?) lives 4 houses down from me now and that makes me happy!! :-D and andrew does too, i need to make amends with him or i'll never be aloud back in that house :-\. i hope rose and danyel had a good time at the show. i haven't had a cigerette in 6 days. im so happy about that, and i was around cigerettes yesterday too. eeee. i met rachels zach- SUPER NICE. and im interested in this other zack that britt and anna know. he's not that attractive, but he's really "COOL" lol. hahaha. welp, later.

ranger joe

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 18:05:45 GMT

my mother will not let me outta this house this whole weekend due to the fact im sick, so i've been wasting my time eating everything i can and watching full house and seventh heaven all weekend. how productive. maybe i should be doing my homework and cleaning my room... i have nothing else to do. ehh.. too lazy i guess. i feel shitty for not being able to go to stefans party last night! :(! ... i wish i coulda atleast hung out with danyel, dustin, josh n them... but my mom refuses to let me do a damn thing and its driving me up a fukking wall! ahh. i haven't stayed home for so long my whole life. im out everyday... i feel so akward and outta place... i feel like im on a horrible vacation. well im gonna go. laterrrr

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFAN!

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 17:51:45 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEFAN! I LOVE YOU SWEETIE!!!!! too bad i can't fukking go to your party tonight since i've been outta school for 3 days and im sick as fukk. actually, i can't go out all weekend :( im so pissed. FUKK. i really wanted to go too. well, have a great birthday anyway I <3 u!!! damn, 18... and you're leaving soon :( AHHHH.

fukk being sick.

tried again

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 01:44:11 GMT

tried calling mike once again. that didn't work out :(. either he's avoiding or he's just never home. ahh. oh well i guess. i think im getting sick. i wanna quit smoking. i held up signs on the side of the road for eddis dad cuz he's running for mayor or something alond those lines. it was weird. im gonna go.

p.s. im an official ghost hunter now. lol. <3

woo ah ah ah ah

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 10:14:59 GMT

went to cemetary again, and chris daniks dad was there. it was sad. nothing was discovered. oh man. i think we're getting a little over obsessed with this whole "dead ghosty" thing. we ended up going to this abandoned "haunted" house in wellington off sr7. i refused to go in and they came RUNNING back to the car. it was crazy. i laughed. it was crazy. our next adventure is buying a camera and taking orb pictures. A LITTLE OBSESSED ARE WE NOW?!.. ahh. then we're supposed to go to this abandonded "haunted" college where people have been murdered and there's blood all over the carpet and shit and its crazy or something. we've been looking up haunted places all night. its so weird. for now, im going to barf. later. p.s. that movie was saw tonight, was some crazy ass shit. <3

scary.

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 07:46:24 GMT

went to the cemetary. it was creppy shit. met shawn for the first time. he's an awesome kid. seriously. went to the beach with a buncha people. it was just weird/fun. rose n danyel are passed out. and im wide awake. john, eddi, stefan, and shmo are all dunk at dennys.i wish i was with them. im so bored. i never go to sleep this damn early. and i have no where to fukking sleep tonight. im watching court tv. mike's a nice kid too (shawns friend). im gonna go. nice seeing you chelsea!

p.s.
i want a boyfriend.

dear everyone who hates me,

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 04:41:13 GMT

went to the cemetary on friday the 13th. i feel like an asshole cuz i didn't hang out with josh, but john wouldn't pick him up. i tried calling mike meade today, that didn't work out. he wasn't home. how shitty. oh well. had fun with the crew, rollin, u know. lol JK...? im a loser. bye

thats simply my life story

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 05:46:37 GMT

great show. mxpx rocked my socks. sugar cult was good too. the 2 guys ben and ian from billy tallent are super nice. got their autograph n talked to em for a little. it was nice. had a lotta funnnnnn. WOO. glad danyel n rose went. hung out with zakkary, anthony, n some other people. im in such a great mood. wooooo. met this kid bryan there. he was the hottest thing ever. he looked exactly like mike meade. SO HOT. man, i gotta call mike. Travis was there. that made me excited as well. Tonight was just a super good night. i felt bad that robbie got hit in the face though. that made me really upset. but other than that, the night was so grand. WOOOOOOO :-D.

IIIII LOOVEEE LIVIN IN THE CITTYYY

i hate me

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 02:49:23 GMT

relaxing day. but im sorry chelsea. i didn't know i was gonna do all that. my goal was to be home by 6:00 and we didn't get in town till 6 so we ate cuz stefan was going to pass out, and just everything kinda just bunched up. im really sorry. i just.. i dont know anymore. aslkdjfal;sdkjf;lskjdf :( shit just is going crazy. i gotta go do my project. later

danny danny danny

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 04:48:56 GMT

this is the love of my life. EVLIS LOOK ALIKE. I WANT YOU DANNY!

loser

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 05:29:35 GMT

good night. hung out with rose, danyel, jason, and ant. went back to ant's eddi was there, jeff, jessica 1, jessica 2, and us. joe shmoe stopped by and john was coming in as we were leaving. i dont think he wants to hang out with me too much anymore. ant is so cute. we're gonna chzzill with him tomorrow. jeff is the coolest person i've ever talked to. and danyel says that supposedly we went there last night, but i dont remember. (I DONT DO DRUGS). it was crazy. later

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 23:56:23 GMT

im making a journal that NO ONE will ever know about. i dont like people reading my shit, but i dont wanna take the time to write it. bye

the fan isn't on

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 23:52:49 GMT

i've been having a lot of fun lately. but now, its time for a huge ass project. i got all A's and B's on my progress report, and that makes me REALLY excited. i just hope i can get this damn thing done. luckily devin is in my group for this project and he can help me. ... correction, i am helping him. he's really cool. we just got off the phone. weird shit. he's like completely in LOVE with 311. its crazyness. He wrote me a note today.. it was really nice. i realized im gonna take everyone's advice and not jump to conclusions that i like people. cuz brandon turned out to be an asshole. and eddi, well.. i just realized he's just eddi.. hot, but not for me i guess. and shit just happens. hopefully tomorrow i have a great time. with whoever i hang out with. ant took me home today and he is the cutest thing since sliced bread. i gotta get this shat done. <3

p.s. thanks for the note cait.
and matt, i <3 u and miss u....